Found in Grace

Jesus' beloved

September 16, 2013 1:44 am

O draw me, O draw me away Messiah today

It’s interesting that just the day before Marked Camp, I met up with Pastor CK and we were talking about how the single/attached status is over emphasized in church (in CHC definitely where people are encouraged to get married young, a lot get married before they turn 24, and in GenRev too, but Pastor Benjamin has since cleared that up during camp) and how an intimate relationship with Jesus should be #1 and most emphasized instead. And he just really confirmed some of the things I’ve been feeling lately - to enjoy the ‘single’ season without feeling the pressure to get attached (not really from the friends, more from the parents and grandma), to focus on building an intimate relationship with Jesus, build godly friendships, especially with girl friends (yes, he emphasized it again, but now I do have more girl friends than guy friends :D), establish career, go travel and see the world. It’s not that I’m not open if Jesus decides that now is the right time and season for a relationship but I’m completely happy/content right where I am, without any relationship commitments, having freedom to do what I want to do, and most importantly, having the luxury of time to really get intimate with Jesus and to be involved in ministry. It’s not that all these are not possible once someone is in a relationship, it’s just that it may be a bit more challenging to find the time and resources. And I feel that whichever season someone is in, whether it’s single, attached or married, it’s important to have a personal relationship with the Lord, to always draw from Him.


Song of Solomon 1:2, 4

Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth - For your love is better than wine… …Draw me away! 

Thinking back on the women’s session this year, the verse shared (above) just reminded me of this song that was sung way back in CHC. It’s an awesome worship song that I used to play over and over again, forgot about it for a while, but really, in this season, "O draw me, O draw me away Messiah today to Your presence to stay" 

The most epic romance is the one with Jesus.

Once I have turned my face from Thee 
Yet You sought me You cleansed me 
Made me whole again 
Jesus my Savior, my Beloved and Friend 
Your praises I bring 
From my heart I sing
 

O draw me, O draw me away Messiah today To Your presence to stay 
O Jesus now change me 
And mould me 
That I can be 
Evermore true to Thee

You are the Shepherd of my heart
You have brought me to Your chamber
My Master and King

You light up my darkness

And gave me Your word
That You’ll never forsake me
Nor no ever will leave me

September 2, 2012 11:04 pm

My foes are many, they rise against me
But I will hold my ground
I will not fear the war, I will not fear the storm
My help is on the way, my help is on the way

Oh, my God, He will not delay
My refuge and strength always
I will not fear, His promise is true
My God will come through always, always

Troubles surround me, chaos abounding
My soul will rest in You
I will not fear the war, I will not fear the storm
My help is on the way, my help is on the way

Oh, my God, He will not delay
My refuge and strength always
I will not fear, His promise is true
My God will come through always, always

I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord
I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord
I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord
I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord
From You Lord, from You Lord

Oh, my God, He will not delay
My refuge and strength always
I will not fear, His promise is true
My God will come through always, always

Oh, my God, He will not delay
My refuge and strength always, always

May 19, 2012 12:57 pm

Verse 1:
There is a song in every silence
There is a dawn in every darkness
There is a hope in every pain

There is a spring in every winter
Even in doubt there is believing
Through every season You are near
Verse 2: 
You satisfy our deepest hunger
You broke the bond and set us free
You gave us life eternally

Jesus the name that calms our fears
Only in You our sorrows cease
Your love has won and now we see

Chorus: 
Oh Your favor and Your grace Lord
Last a lifetime
Last a lifetime

Vamp:
Hallelujah
You are faithful
You are faithful

May 14, 2012 12:14 pm

This could have been just another day 

But instead we’re standing here 
No need for words, it’s all been said 
in the way you hold me near 
I was alone on this journey 
You came along to comfort me 
Everything I want in life is right here 

[Chorus:]

cause 
This is not your ordinary 
no ordinary love 
I was not prepared enough 
to fall so deep in love 
This is not your ordinary 
no ordinary love 
You were the first to touch my heart 
Made everything right again 
with your extraordinary love 

[Chorus]

I get so weak 
when you look at me 
I get lost inside your eyes 
sometimes the magic is hard to believe 
but you’re here before my weary eyes 
you brought joy to my world 
set me so free 
I want you to understand 
you are every breath that I breathe 

[Chorus]

From the very first time that we kissed 
I knew that I just couldn’t let you go at all 
From this day on, remember this: 
That you’re the only one that I adore 
Can’t we make this last forever 
This can’t be a dream 
cause it feels so good to me 

[Chorus x2]

We spoke about songs we’d like to use at our weddings, and this is one of my favourites. It’s lyrics I can say & mean it to Jesus now, and hopefully to a man one day too. Believing Daddy God for an extraordinary love story filled with His superabounding grace.

April 3, 2012 3:25 pm 12:16 am

Matthew 28:20
And be sure of this:
I am with you always.

If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea
He’ll walk on water, to save you
If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can’t see
He’ll be the light to guide you

You know He can be trusted
Cos He has said “I am with you always”!

[Chorus]
You can count on Him like 1, 2, 3
He’ll be there
You know when you most need it
You can count on Him like 4, 3, 2
And He’ll be there
‘cause that’s what God has promised us oh yeah
ooooooh, oooohhh yeah yeah
[Verse 2]
If you’re tossin’ and you’re turnin
and you just can’t fall asleep
He’ll sing a song beside you
And if you ever forget how much you really mean to Him
Every day He will remind you
You know He can be trusted
Cos He has said “I am with you always”!

[Chorus]
You can count on Him like 1, 2, 3
He’ll be there
You know when you most need it
You can count on Him like 4, 3, 2
And He’ll be there
‘cause that’s what God has promised us oh yeah
ooooooh, oooohhh yeah yeah
You’ll always have His shoulder when you cry
He’ll never let go
Never say goodbye
[Chorus]
You know you can count on Him like 1, 2, 3
He’ll be there
You know when you most need it
You can count on Him like 4, 3, 2
And He’ll be there
‘cause that’s what God has promised us oh yeah
ooooooh, oooohhh

Matthew twenty eight, twenty is true

March 29, 2012 9:31 pm

Living, He loved me
Dying, He saved me
Buried, He carried my sins far away
Rising, He justified freely forever
One day He’s coming
Oh glorious day, oh glorious day 

March 21, 2012 5:33 pm

I’m soooooo undeservedly, unreservedly blessed because His open arms held NOTHING back. 

March 20, 2012 10:16 pm

dedicated to Tanya, Wendy, Xinru <3s

March 13, 2012 4:07 pm

So it seemed that it was cool, for everyone to be in a relationship but me.
So I took matters into my own hands, and ended up with him.
Him who displayed the characteristics of a cheater, a liar, an abuser, & a thief.

So why was I surprised when he broke into my heart?
I called 911, but I was cardiac arrested for aiding and abetting,
Cause it was me who let him in…
Claiming we were “just friends”.
It was already decided for me by the first date, that even if he wasn’t!
I was gonna make him ‘The One’
You know, I was tired of being alone.
And I simply made up in my mind, that it was about that time, 

So I decided to drag him along for the ride,
Cause I was always the bridesmaid & never the bride.
A virgin in the physical, but mentally just a grown woman on the corner in heat!
Who was tired of the wait!
So I was gonna make him ‘The One’.
He had a… form of Godliness… but not much.
But hey, hey I can change him! So (honey) I’ll TAKE him, I mean he’s close… enough.
Ready to sell my aorta for a quarter, not knowing the value of its use to me.
Arties so clogged with my will, it blocked His will from flowing through me.
So, I thank Christ that His blood pressure gave this heart an attack,
That flatlined my obscured vision, put me flat on my back
Through my ignorance He sawed,
Through my sternum He sawed & cracked open my chest
To transplant Psalm 51:10
A new heart & a renewed right spirit within!

So now I fully understand,
Better yet I thoroughly comprehend,
How much I need to wait… for You.
See, the bad thing is that I knew he wasn’t you from the beginning..
Cause in the beginning was the Word
And he didn’t even sound or shine like Your Son
Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks,
And all he could whisper was sweet, empty nothings –
Which meant NOTHING.
He couldn’t even pray when I needed him to,
Asking him to fast would be absurd!
So forget about being cleansed & washed with water through the Word…
But I know You.. 
You were already praying for me.
Even never having met me,
Let me assure you, I will wait for you.

I will no longer date, socialize or communicate with carbon copies of you
To appease my boredom or to quench my thirstiness I have for attention
And short-lived compliments from ‘sorta kindas’.
You know…. 
He ‘sort kinda’ right, but ‘sorta kinda’ wrong?
His first name LUKE,
His last name WARM.
I, I won’t settle for false companionship
I won’t lay in the embrace of his arms,
Attempting to find some closeness,
But never feeling so far apart cause, I just wanna be held
Cause ”all I gotta do is Say” No!
No more ‘almost sessions’ of ‘almost coming close’
Passing winks & buying drinks,
I’ma, I’ma, I’ma flirt!
Who flirts with the ideology of,
‘Can you just tell me how much I can get away with & still be saved?’
NO more.
I’ll stay in my bed alone, and write poems, about how I will wait for you. 
He won’t even come close,
Our fingers won’t even interlock
We won’t even exchange breath
Cause I have thoughts that I’ve ‘saved as’ in a file that God has only equipped you to open.

I will no longer get weighted down,
From so-called friends & family talks,
About the concern for my biological clock
When I serve the Author of Time.
Who is NOT subject to time,
But I’M subject to Him,
He has the ability to STOP, FAST FORWARD, PAUSE, or REWIND at any given time…

So if we could role play,
You would be Abraham & I would be Sara
Or you can be Isaac & I can be Rebecca – a servant’s answered prayer
I am bone of your bone, flesh of your flesh,
Made up of your rib Adam!
And once we meet, like electrons
I will be bound to your nucleus, completely indivisible atom.
We even speak the same math: 1 + 1 + 1 = 3, which really equals 1 if you add Him.
We were all created in His image,
But you have the ability to reflect, project & even detect the Son.
If I were to explain what you looked like,
You would have to look like a star,
A son of the Son..
I would gain energy simply from the light on me.
I would need you , in order to complete my photosynthesis
I await your revelation, but once again from the genesis, I will wait for you.

And I will know you… because when you speak I will be reminded of Solomon’s wisdom,
Your ability to lead will remind me of Moses,
Your faith will remind me of Abraham,
Your confidence in God’s Word will remind me of Daniel,
Your inspiration will remind me of Paul,
Your heart for God will remind me of David,
Your attention to detail will remind me of Noah,
Your integrity will remind me of Joseph,
And your ability to abandon your own will, will remind me of the disciples,
But your ability to love selflessly & unconditionally will remind me of Christ.
But I won’t need to identify you by any special Matthews or any special Marks,
Cause His word will be tatted all over your heart.

And you will know me, and you will find me,
Where… the boldness of Esther meets the warm closeness of Ruth.
Where the hospitality of Lydia is aligned with the submission of Mary,
Which is engulfed in the tears of a praying Hanna.
I will be the one, drenched in Proverbs 31… waiting for you.

But to my Father, my Father who has known me before I was birthed into this earth
Only if you should see fit…
I desire Your will above mine,
So even if you call me to a life of singleness,
My heart is content with YOU – the One who was sent.
YOU are the greatest love story ever told,
The greatest story ever known
You are forever my judge & I’m forever Your witness
And I pray that I’m always found on a mission about my Father’s business
Oh, I will always be Yours!
And I will always wait for You Lord, more than the watchmen wait for the morning
More than the watchmen wait for the morning…

I will wait.